Haven't been writing for ages now.
Many things had happened, but I was trying to embrace it by just 'seeing' ... to see the emotion, the rising and falling of it.
Sometimes it is successful, sometimes it didn't
Sometimes I just go blank and vent out my negative emotion --> bad bad me!
Need a lot of practice... and a lot of support from my dear one
Maybe this writing won't help much in my practice. but I just wanna write down my opinion
Dear one won't be glad about this, I bet. Haha
In the past few days, I was totally annoyed by the fact, I am the only one annoyed of this particular situation.
CINDERELLA
Every girl grew up with a version of Cinderella, from the young age we were planted with this Cinderella software. Life is hard and cruel, and you wish for a luck - a fairy Godmother who arranges everything for you, to land a Prince Charming in front of you. And Price Charming happened to be a Prince owning a Kingdom, rich, nice, handsome etc... happened to be deeply in love with you. And you live happily ever after.
We all know that it is a fairytale. As much as I or the rest of the world wanted to have this exact story line, I choose to live on my own feet.
Well, at least I choose to "work it out" rather than waiting for a Prince.
So, I was in a situation where I am stuck. A scenario where I was supposed to be (one of) the fairy godmother - pathing a way for Ella to her Prince Charming.
Since Ella is so desperate, she managed to have troops of fairy godmothers doing the job. I refused to be part of this conspiracy.
Ella put her life into a bet: her dignity, family, career, and bank account on the gambling table. She landed herself into the Prince's Kingdom and waiting for Prince Charming to turn her into Princess
She was eye-ing on not just one Prince Charming, but 2 or maybe more. Well, all are Princes... so whichever she able to grabbed. Good enough.
She failed.
And became a miserable Cinderella... the story didn't end in "... and they lived happily ever after"
I am very much annoyed that, she openly announce her mission - looking for a (?) rich Prince Charming.
Openly. Meaning everybody knew it. Including the Princes. And the rest of the world.
Yet, people supported her.
Almost everybody supports her, all based on the ultimate excuse:
"She just wanted a better life"
"What is wrong with pursuing her dream? Everyone have the right to have a better life"
"Why is the Prince so cruel, Can't he see that Ella was desperate?"
We all want a sudden struck of luck. Even Kim Kardashian need to do something to be that famous and rich!
Let's be realistic!
Ok. Maybe I am not so annoyed. I pity her too.
I am just questioning the sanity of my surrounding.
No one actually see "selling soul for money" as a bad thing... it is acceptable. Selling oneself for wealth is totally acceptable & considered common practice now? WTF??!!!
Am I the only one swimming against the current?
OK... now back to my rising and falling.
May this fall and never rise again
