The Flu

Yesterday I went to have a health check-up. Not that I worry that my South America trip has given me extra gift of swine flu, but I was quite annoyed with my constantly-runny nose and thick phlegm on my throat. Guess what, the doctor said I am OK; my flu is a result of irregular rests and exhaustion.Talking about pandemic flu, one must heard about Tamiflu before. This magic capsule of Oseltamivir has been claimed to be the cure of infamous avian-flu. But for this new type of flu, the usage of this medicine is still questionable. Nevertheless, the availability in Indonesia is fully controlled by government hospitals (two thumbs up, Indonesia!!!); while in Singapore, although it’s a non-prescription drug, it has vanished from the market, along with hand-sanitizer. But none can beat HongKong with its stock 3x of the island’s population.

I got the first peep of Tamiflu in a pharmacy, at Mall of Emirates, Dubai. A box of 10 capsules cost 180AED. I didn’t purchase it, too costly for something that gives no promise, even the pharmacist said so. Hohoho, stingy Ming. But lucky I didn’t get it, cause for sure I will swallow it without any health consultation.

And no matter what happen, please don’t blame it to the animal, birds, pigs or whatever comes next. Remember, it was us human who “create” these new viruses, and it was us too, who named it after them. So, please do not connect it to any religion or race. The virus never checks any I.D. before attacking.
This event is merely an evolution in action, survival for the fittest. Maybe it’s just another way for the old earth to get rid some of its enormous burden.

c'est la vie

In these past few days, not sure if I am over-sensitive or people started to have more interests on me; many has asked me about my present life. Most of you know it already. Then, I received a lot of negative and sarcastic comments (well, to my ears), such as: “Yeah, you are spoiled”, “Unable to work”, “Not up for a challenge”, “It’s predicted”, “Way too lucky”… bla bla bla. The main point is, all said that it has been too good to be true, and thus I don’t deserve it.

Let me tell you what, I won’t deny that I am luckier than most people. But I cannot accept the comments that “I am good for nothing”. In the past years, I have worked very hard, and I am happy with what I have achieved. Though, many said that I was given more privileges or I took short cuts. Well, listen, I didn’t! I just do it in smarter way, but I never cheat. I don’t care if most of you take ages to get it. For what I achieved, it was the result of my sweat and hard work!!! I am proud of it. None of it was served on silver platter.

As for now, even if I choose to take another dimension, it is my right. I might sound cocky. But too bad, I have the choice, you don’t. Why would I let you judge my choice?

unable to close my eyes

it's 01:36am now. couldn't sleep.

either i am still having a jetlag or i really think too much about our last conversation.
sure it was a heavy topic, yet unavoidable, need to face it sooner or later.
i have been thinking about it for quite sometime, do our sacrifices will worth it in the future?
would i ever regret the decision? would you?
we both need to let go very big pieces of our lives.
feel very confused and uneasy about this ...
the usual me, always seeking for security, but in this case, i couldn't find any safety net at all.

but then, no matter what we think or plan ...
things might change, maybe for better or for worse, none of us will know

really, about your big news you told me this morning ... i really have no feeling what-so-ever
something that surprise me too. i was so eager to get it before, even begged for it for at least a year now.
now, feeling nothing.
i know that you have given me a clue to take a short-cut to get it, i understand, i could try. but should i? what do i really want?
not sure if i really lose feeling about it, or i have lost my ambition ... or i really need to fulfill my politically-correct duties.

no matter what it is, it has taken the peace out of my much-needed-sleep...

My New Ride

Today, I got my lil pony. Cute cute silver pony. Took a ride with my pony... hehehe