Show Me The Way

A long overdued tribute for my capable GPS, it has been showing me the way to my destinations for quite sometime now. It is a truly amazing, sophisticated and handy piece of device. It gets me home too, always. Love you. Very thoughtful of you. Thank you, Baby.

Can I get it?

Either that I’ve been too long in this idleness or I finally come into the hard fact about my past desires, which never vanished or I just envious to see you busily dancing in my previous fantasy; but I started to have a deep sore feeling every time I look into your familiar routine. I thought I’ve forgotten how it feels, but dear, it is still there. Though I know that the chance to step into the same vehicle no longer exist, things have changed; but I still miss it, really miss it. Gotta find a way to wipe this sorrow off. And I guess, the only way to override this feeling is by having something greater than it ever was.

Now, I am down to the question, “Where can I get it?”

Lost & Found

Due to my unorganized habit and my clumsiness, I lost my wallet yesterday. It contains almost everything that I have in wealth form, personal ID, driving license, and some other personal stuff.In an hour after the incident, listening to my beloved’s advice, I blocked my credit card, easily done. Yet, the anxiety still clings on. How can I have another meal tomorrow? I really have no cash on hand, at all.
I had no mood to do anything, couldn’t even have a proper sleep, and kept waking up in the middle of the night. Feel very uneasy, not only because of the wallet, but also feeling remorse to disappoint my beloved. Though no words were said, but can feel the tension. I should have been more careful. I am sorry, dear, will try to be better next time.

Today, after several visits and phone calls to security and management office, finally there’s a light. The guy who picked up my wallet called up to security, but he insists to surrender the wallet directly to me, not to security. I guess he doesn’t trust them. There, he returned the wallet safe and sound, all intact, nothing is missing. Then, he doesn’t even want to take any reward. Really respect him for the honest action.

Thank you so much for returning the wallet to me. Also thanks to the security personnel, management personnel for the assistance. Thanks so much to you for being there for me as my strength, as always. Really appreciate it

A cold cup of coffee…

Looking at the half-sipped coffee. Cold and sad
Losing its bittersweet aroma. No longer inviting
Its sour taste has taken all my senses
Immersing into my chest
Drenching tears

Wondering if you are dreaming in the sky
or staring blankly into yesman world

Though this sweet smell still lingers, the shadow has gone
Again, the space no longer same without you

Value over Price

Traveling could be a hell trip without the right footwear. A pair of sport shoes is a must for me, but it wasn’t really suitable for my last trip. The weather was abit too warm. So, in Rio, I gave in to a pair of white flip-flop. Yes, the cost is "crazy" compare to our locally worshipped sandal-jepit. But, I made a right purchase. Value over price, it saved me throughout the trip. Yap, throughout the trip, I even wear it with my dress, who cares about people staring, I care about my happy feet. A true Life-Saver!!!

PS: Rubber flip-flop is much much comfy-er than the girlie-fancy flip-flop. Really!!!

The Flu

Yesterday I went to have a health check-up. Not that I worry that my South America trip has given me extra gift of swine flu, but I was quite annoyed with my constantly-runny nose and thick phlegm on my throat. Guess what, the doctor said I am OK; my flu is a result of irregular rests and exhaustion.Talking about pandemic flu, one must heard about Tamiflu before. This magic capsule of Oseltamivir has been claimed to be the cure of infamous avian-flu. But for this new type of flu, the usage of this medicine is still questionable. Nevertheless, the availability in Indonesia is fully controlled by government hospitals (two thumbs up, Indonesia!!!); while in Singapore, although it’s a non-prescription drug, it has vanished from the market, along with hand-sanitizer. But none can beat HongKong with its stock 3x of the island’s population.

I got the first peep of Tamiflu in a pharmacy, at Mall of Emirates, Dubai. A box of 10 capsules cost 180AED. I didn’t purchase it, too costly for something that gives no promise, even the pharmacist said so. Hohoho, stingy Ming. But lucky I didn’t get it, cause for sure I will swallow it without any health consultation.

And no matter what happen, please don’t blame it to the animal, birds, pigs or whatever comes next. Remember, it was us human who “create” these new viruses, and it was us too, who named it after them. So, please do not connect it to any religion or race. The virus never checks any I.D. before attacking.
This event is merely an evolution in action, survival for the fittest. Maybe it’s just another way for the old earth to get rid some of its enormous burden.

c'est la vie

In these past few days, not sure if I am over-sensitive or people started to have more interests on me; many has asked me about my present life. Most of you know it already. Then, I received a lot of negative and sarcastic comments (well, to my ears), such as: “Yeah, you are spoiled”, “Unable to work”, “Not up for a challenge”, “It’s predicted”, “Way too lucky”… bla bla bla. The main point is, all said that it has been too good to be true, and thus I don’t deserve it.

Let me tell you what, I won’t deny that I am luckier than most people. But I cannot accept the comments that “I am good for nothing”. In the past years, I have worked very hard, and I am happy with what I have achieved. Though, many said that I was given more privileges or I took short cuts. Well, listen, I didn’t! I just do it in smarter way, but I never cheat. I don’t care if most of you take ages to get it. For what I achieved, it was the result of my sweat and hard work!!! I am proud of it. None of it was served on silver platter.

As for now, even if I choose to take another dimension, it is my right. I might sound cocky. But too bad, I have the choice, you don’t. Why would I let you judge my choice?

unable to close my eyes

it's 01:36am now. couldn't sleep.

either i am still having a jetlag or i really think too much about our last conversation.
sure it was a heavy topic, yet unavoidable, need to face it sooner or later.
i have been thinking about it for quite sometime, do our sacrifices will worth it in the future?
would i ever regret the decision? would you?
we both need to let go very big pieces of our lives.
feel very confused and uneasy about this ...
the usual me, always seeking for security, but in this case, i couldn't find any safety net at all.

but then, no matter what we think or plan ...
things might change, maybe for better or for worse, none of us will know

really, about your big news you told me this morning ... i really have no feeling what-so-ever
something that surprise me too. i was so eager to get it before, even begged for it for at least a year now.
now, feeling nothing.
i know that you have given me a clue to take a short-cut to get it, i understand, i could try. but should i? what do i really want?
not sure if i really lose feeling about it, or i have lost my ambition ... or i really need to fulfill my politically-correct duties.

no matter what it is, it has taken the peace out of my much-needed-sleep...

My New Ride

Today, I got my lil pony. Cute cute silver pony. Took a ride with my pony... hehehe

Farty Love

Once, I told my Baby,

"I know it's love if I'm comfortable enough to exchange fart with my loved one"Then my baby answered,

"I know it is true love when you keep falling in love with the same person"

Hahaha... That's a very sweet answer, Baby. Fart fart. Porkchop.