in 10 days

All gone in just 10 days

Forgetting the Past, Welcoming the New...

I am a pre-enlightened person

I heard it many times...
These sermons, these stories and morals of the stories, these jokes, these suggestions...
The difference is it was told by many different monks, different priests, different religious leaders.
I find out that almost every single of them keep repeating the same stories again and again. Kinda boring and predictable.
Once they said a few words, I can simply guess the end of the story and also moral of the stories

Well, I compare them to street peddler - selling their magic potion that cure every diseases...
So many people watching the peddler speaking magic about the potions...BUT
     How many of the audience actually listen?  
     How many of the audience actually have the money to buy the potion?
     How many of the audience who has the money, actually buy the potion?
     How many of the audience actually buy and use potion after they buy it?
     How many of the audience succeedly get the result of the magic potion?

I guess I am one of the audience who seen and heard too much about the miracle of magic potion.
I am able to buy, I already bought it.
BUT it seems like I just cannot make myself to make a good use of the magic potion, no matter how much I need it.
I am a pre-enlightened person.

Let Nature Takes Its Course...

I guess it is true that nature always find a way to solve things up, even if it's a prolonged unsolved problem.
Like what happen to Bangladesh & India.

"What these two countries could not achieve from years of talking has been resolved by global warming"

For nearly 30 years, India and Bangladesh have argued over control of a tiny rock island in the Bay of Bengal. Now rising sea levels have resolved the dispute for them: the island has gone.New Moore island in the Sunderbans has been completely submerged, said oceanographer Sugata Hazra, a professor at Jadavpur University in Kolkata. Its disappearance has been confirmed by satellite imagery and sea patrols.

see here for more info :)

Wishful Gaze

In front of me, there's innocent eyes from the boy that I can"t bear to see, I was trying to look away, denying what I see. I was holding my breath as I walk into those ruined rooms, how can they sleep in there? And again, I need to face my biggest fear: to see into their eyes. Those eyes that showed a big expectation from each person who came to visit them and promised to help them, and most of them never come back. Those poor children..

It"s all started last Sunday, my friend V asked me to join her to visit an orphanage, she brought some cakes, snacks and milk powder for them. Seriously, I was very uncomfortable to be there, it is not because of the kids' attitude, of course, so far, they have been very welcoming to strangers (I guess they get used to get visited)
 

Well, before this,  I've visited this particular orphanage before with DaAi team. Exactly like my previous visit,  I didn't interact much to the kids unless they speak to me first, it makes me feel uneasy. I refused to say or do much in the orphanage, I also refused to create too much attention about the visit. ... not because I'm cold... but I really care about them in a different way.
 

Here is the picture of 2 youngest member of the orphanage.

These 2 babies that strike me the most. Both were surrendered by their poor parents whom unable to provide necessary care for them. I know their parents didn't have evil means abandoning them. At least in the orphanage, they can get necessary food and clothing and companion of orphanage brothers and sisters. Most parents will ensure their kids will get the best nutrition in their kids' early age. I am not quite sure how much nutrition the babies will get, but I am sure they'll stay alive.

It is painful to see that the kids live in poor condition, wearing either too big or too small clothing with holes here and there, eating whatever provided, sleeping anywhere they can find. More pics here...

I don't want to give any hope to them for that I cannot commit, not that I don't want to...
I wouldnt complain much, cos I cannot help much
I cannot promise much too..

How can I help, I cannot always provide them.
I hate the feeling of this hopelessness... but in my deepest heart, i really want the best for them..